I reeeeally don’t want to go to Michigan with my grandparents. We leave for two weeks starting Saturday, I’m still trying to get out of it… bleh. Not to mention school is going to start soon.

And I’m having those psycho baby feelings again. XD I’m DESPERATE to baby-sit for Mel, my mom’s friend. Her sons are both very young, one’s still a baby. ^^ And for some reason I have to be around kids now. I’m all depressed because there are no kids around for me to take care of. Then this morning around four-ish I was watching Full House because nothing was on, and they had Michelle in her nursery, and then I had one of my psycho moments where I wanted to be able to clean up some nursery and take care of the baby… My hormones are SO out of whack, its not even funny. This isn’t supposed to happen til ya hit MENOPAUSE! XDD!

I also read this thing from this book my grandma bought me, mostly because I didn’t wanna read Harry Potter or anything. Too.. Er.. Stressful! XD Anyway, and it was talking about how girls without fathers go about relationships with guys, and I’m like, “Yay! In a messed-up way, I AM normal!” Then I got depressed, because that’s what being normal does to you.

I wanna see if Kym’s idea would work, betting me off in exchange for a cigarette… long story… okay, not really, but whatever.

I need a job. I wanna work with kids. <.< Badly. I’d work at some daycare with all the little munchkin monster things. And I’d be happy. XD Luckily I wouldn’t wanna do it full time. So nobody rape me and say they’re doing me a favor! LOOK AT MY SIDE SECTION! Don’t fuck with me, loser. Literally.

XD I’m so hyper…

Ah, speakin’ of babies! My aunt is begging us to fly to Vegas ASAP to see her new baby, born over the weekend. Her name is Amanda… its nice, but I was thinking of something more original… whatever, not MY baby. I do wanna go, both to see the baby and to just be in Vegas… go to the casino my aunt works at… yeah.

Oh, and I thought of a thingie this morning. Why I get bored with boyfriends.

“Boyfriends are just my friends who I flirt with, sometimes exclusively, so it doesn’t matter. Until the ‘exclusive’ part gets tired. Then you break up.”

Yeah… that’s it…

Or I’m like my dad and I don’t like being tied down to one person. Monogamy…

Or… or… maybe… I’m just whore-ish. XD *points to side thing again*

I am so hyped up on Lipton tea and Coca-Cola its not even FUNNY. Okay, actually, it is. XD Only in a bad way. Which is actually good. Because I keep contradicting myself. Which I find funny.

I am cold. Cold cold cold cold. The AC is too high but I dun feel like turning it down. Because I am a bum. *sighs* Oh well.

I think me and Kym are going out again on Friday… we might see Anchorman. Only I am concerned for her financial welfare! “I’m broke.. Wait! I got money! Nevermind. No, I’m not broke, I have money.” I told her to hit up her parents, only she won’t do it.

Which reminds me, my mom owes me $45.

Eh… I’ll just call it even when I order my new CD player from Overstock.com. I have two… one the headphones won’t work out of one ear because the connections shorted (I just bought it last summer dammit) and the other lasted me for four years… so its too old to play burned Cds. XD Which sucks. And the battery door thingie falls off sometimes. And I wouldn’t mind, because I like the duct tape look, but the burned cd thing makes me mad. Tee hee.

Uhh… I’m running out of things to ramble on… well, there’s a rumor William Hung is dead. Anybody see the full suicide note? I only got to read part of it. I dunno if I believe he really IS dead though, since everybody’s be talking about it, and I only saw it on obscure sites… so… bleh. Drug overdose… yeah…

I. Have. So. Many. Issues.

Well, I’m off to glomp the pirates.

So Much Sexier Than Inuyuki/Dalton,

Amaya/Ashley